ROLEPLAY

Folially 24, 3rd AC 2619

Things are starting to get clearer about our departure. Once we are ready, we leave again in two days. We will be accompanied again, but this time not by Kickan. This one leaves again tomorrow towards the Fort, with another team member and some goods.

The one who will accompany us is Titus. A Fyros, who looks young, but seems to have the energy of a bedridden celiakos. I exaggerate. He is just young, in fact. It's apparently also due to the high altitude, everyone here seems a bit slower than elsewhere. I feel weak myself. I can see that Ru-Dun is chewing its food more slowly than usual, too. Azazor seems to be stooped as if after drinking three vials of ocyx essence. As if everything was going in slow-motion.
This Titus, then. Since we arrived, he followed us, looked at us with big eyes, then asked us questions. Then he asked us to come with us. He wants to leave the island, to move away, to find the Marauders. I heard that his father was one of them, but he never knew him, he grew up on the island. Azazor eventually gave in to his request with a " Well. But no foolery, right? Taking a Marauder's son along, what a big deal. I objected. Azazor probably thinks it will work out in our favor. What if the father betrayed them? Well, it must have been a long time ago, they'll have forgotten. Above all, he seems too inexperienced for such a journey. "Do you at least know how to hold a sword at the right end?" I asked. Supposedly, he trains every day, he told us. I didn't want to be too hard on him, but I don't think he's ever faced a kirosta, or anything of that size.

And he asked why we were traveling, if we too were going to join the Marauders.
I answered nothing more than "scientific trip", naturally taking out my axe to resharpen the blade. I don't like it, but it's true that arriving at our next destination with a homin from the Halt could be a good point for us. "Here is a fresh recruit, do with it what you will." Or not, who knows. We'll have to adapt very quickly to the reception they'll give us.

So it's decided, he will travel with us to Cloudy Cliff Diplomatic Outpost. Discreetly I asked Kickan if he knew him, if we could trust him. Here, he told me, no one has any reason to want us dead, as long as we don't cause a catastrophe. I understood this while drinking a baba with him and the Matis we met earlier. Incidentally, the baba is slightly better here than at the Fort, but it's still more bland and insipid than the lightest byrh.

They told us a lot of things about the Halt. The inhabitants here are descendants of the Rangers of Atys, who settled here. At the beginning, now several generations ago. In order to guide the refugees, to offer them a break on the way to the New Lands. That we already knew. Many have left, but some have chosen to settle, and the Halt has quickly turned into a small town. "They don't lack anything here," Coccio, the Matis, explains to me. Few predators, some javings in the north, at most, enough game, a rather generous forest, a lake. The homins hunt armadai, too. So that's it, the bones and hides that are used to build the houses. Azazor asked how, and if he could attend a hunt, but the next one is not scheduled for a month. There is a large hole, a trap, somewhere in the southeast of the island. Homins imitate the animal's cry, or its predator's, and lure it to the trap. When they succeed in making it collapse, it is killed with a pike by the hunters, then butchered on the spot. It will not be able to get out of the trap in one piece anyway. The hunt for the armadai requires many homins, and sometimes gives rise to a great party. Its meat is very fortifying and invigorating, the main source of energy for them. By the way, Cuccio offered us two large bags filled with this dried meat, for the continuation of our trip.

No one is really Ranger here anymore, or part of the guild, now. One of the only ones who could claim to join them is Kickan, like a few others of his temperament. But he is satisfied with his work between the Fort and the Halt. And as he told us: if he didn't do it, who would? Real Rangers regularly pass through here, and are admired and welcomed as heroes, as life outside the island is so harsh. But if many young people dream of joining them, few actually do. As Coccio says, when you are born here, life is so quiet that you don't need to go running around the world... Kickan joked something like: "Coccio, you are telling that to two Fyros who just traveled half of the Oflovak Road! What do you think? That you're going to convince them to settle here?"
So, Titus' case is quite rare. It was triggered when, as a child, he learned that his father was a former Marauder. By the way, the homin in question had died during an armadai hunt, after slipping and falling into the trap. The animal, in panic, crushed him with its paw, a rare but fatal accident.

But then, we asked, "On the island, neither Rangers nor Marauders, how can they remain so carefree? Marauders in the New Lands are at war with the Nations. What would they do if Marauders here tried to invade the island?" From what I understood from Coccio's explanation, that would be of no interest, to anyone. Marauders are as welcome here as any homin, out of loyalty to the Ranger tradition. The physical capacities are less, for those who are not born there, so they don't stay very long, they soon feel too weak. Just like us. And there is nothing to fight here: no kitins, no Powers, no Nations, and a popular organization. The job of the Island Council is to ensure that these traditions are respected, and to administer the city in consultation with everyone. Coccio is elected with five others for a few years of Jena, and will leave his place in two years. "Maybe to Kickan," he said with a smile. "He would do a good job." To which Kickan replied sarcastically that he was not old enough, like him, for such a task. "The Council? Stuff for bedridden!" he said. "Not as much as back home in the Desert," I added.
"Getting back to the marauders... We know how to quell the troublemakers," Coccio tells me. "Usually they behave well. It even happened in the past that some of them settled on the island, which is very frowned upon among them." Just like it will upon us: he warns us that we will be very unwelcome among the Marauders. But, the fact that we are traveling with a homin from here will maybe be helpful, and if we bring some goods, too.

Besides their benevolence, Azazor and I thought we saw in our hosts a kind of insouciance regarding the problems of the world, and above all, we were stunned by this lack of curiosity, this total absence of the thirst for knowledge that inhabits us. We looked at each other, and kept our mouths shut. As if for the first time in a long time, we understood each other.

Today, two strangers arrived from the west. They accompanied our dear Kickan. I haven't seen them yet, but Tikra says they are two Fyros from beyond the green lands. Farther than Fort Beacon. Farther than Kickan's. I say that Tikra is talking nonsense again. Ever since she started working at the West Elevator, she's been telling me all kinds of crap. The last time, she claimed to have seen an armadai bigger than the others crushing a yetin under its weight. If she wasn't my big sister, I would hate her. Tomorrow I'll go see the two strangers and see if that is still some craps from Tikra.


I can't believe it, the two Fyros do come from a place far to the west of the Halt. Beyond the horizon, there are countries where homins have built huge cities. The Fyros homin spoke of an empire ruled by a guy who is over a century old. This made the Fyrossa accompanying him laugh. But the most incredible thing is that these two homins are heading east, towards the Citadel. So I told them about my father, who was a former Marauder who came here to retire. They found it interesting because they immediately asked me questions about what it was like there, and where my father was now. I could see the disappointment on their faces when I told them that he had died two years after I was born and that I didn't know anything about the Citadel. But as for me I have a lot of questions for them. Strangers from so far away must have a lot to say, certainly more interesting than the bullshit of Tikra and her giant armadais.


The Fyros' name is Azazor. He told me that he was a kind of dragon seeker. So I showed him the drawing of my father's tattoo, the one with the fire-breathing flying monster the elders of the Council name a red dragon. My father, he too was a dragon hunter. I could see that this pleased Azazor. He has a dragon tattoo on his face. But it's not the same one. Yeah I told him, my Marauder father was a real dragon slayer. I wish I could be like him. But I'd have to get out of this dump. They say that outside the Halt, it's too dangerous. But I don't care about the danger! I am a son of Marauders! Son of dragon hunter! What do I care about yetins or armadais?


I'M GOING TO LEAVE THE HALT !!!! After three days hassling their asses, they finally gave in. So I will leave with them, towards the Citadel! Azazor showed me the map of the route they've been following all this time. It goes first through the Cloudy Cliff Diplomatic Outpost. They'll leave me over there and then I'll have to figure out how to continue on my own. Azazor told me that he would like me to go on with them to the Citadel, but Eeri, the Fyrossa, doesn't want to. It seems that she doesn't trust me. Azazor reassured me that I would gain her trust along the way and that Eeri might change her mind once we got to the Outpost. 
Mom, if you ever come back from the Great Puddle, I'll leave you my diary, so you'll know that I love you. But my destiny awaits me, far to the east, among the Marauders. I want to live like Dad.


The big departure is coming. I finished loading Polly with my jerky. My two new companions tasted it and loved it. They are butchers at home, among other jobs they have. So my meat must be exceptional. I'm going to open a market at the Cliff Outpost, it's going to be crazy!
Come on, what can I write as the ultimate sentence on my diary? Something snappy. I know, the sentence Azazor told me when Eeri said it would be too hard for me to go with them.
Don't wish it was easier, wish it made you better. 
Yeah, I know I'm going to have a hard time. But when I get to the Citadel, I'll be a different homin. Strong and proud, like my father!

Germinally ???, 4th AC 2619

I told him to wear a helmet.
If only he had. The beast would have ripped the helmet off, and his head would still be on his shoulders. Who knows.
But "dey, I get hot under my helmet, itchy," he said.

Azazor and I have been walking for five days without saying a word, without even swallowing anything. I feel like I can see the eyes of this Titus in front of me, in the mist. His eyes exorbitant with terror on his bodiless head, a stream of blood soaking his still open mouth.
And yet, I have seen some disgusting things. Scenes of torture, horrific deaths, flying limbs. For instance, when I was a young legionary, the day when Icus had cut the arm of a Matissa, before opening the veins of her neck one by one. The blood had splattered on my armor, and she had been told not to come back. We laughed. And of course, she came back. We did it again until she stopped coming back.

If only we could, reaching the Cloudy Cliff, find there a fresh Titus, brought back by some Power… Maybe by the Marauders? But it seems unlikely that he has a crystal, and even if he had his father's, that this one would be active.

In the moment, I didn't have time to don my amplifiers and try to heal him. The beast was already gone, bringing his body away. I know now that it would have been futile. No healing magic, no matter how powerful, can stick a head back on a body, other than by passing through the hands of the Powers. So we fled, taking the mektoubs, and leaving his head where it had fallen. Had Jena or Ma'Duk called him back to them, his terrified face would have already disappeared into fine dust, giving off that bluish glow.

I am scared. We are scared. But we have to move on. We won't see him again. Except in my own madness, his eyes in the mist, and my own voice replaying in my head: "If you fall here, you won't come back."

According to our estimates on the map, the outpost should still be five or six days away. I've never been so delighted about the prospect of meeting Marauders.

End of Nivia, 4th AC 2619. Or 2620 already?

Here we are, we are at the Marauders.

Since we arrived, we go from surprise to surprise. Some more unpleasant than others.
The most unexpected one is that Azazor has been in a much better mood these last days. Our talks are quieter, and we have agreed on our course of action. It's about time. I didn't believe it anymore. The bodoc even asked my opinion, and not just once. I thought he was scheming something, but I guess I was mistaken.

So. We spent a night stuck on the side of a cliff. I've never climbed a cliff so high. We stopped about halfway up, following the directions the homins at the Halt gave us, when we could find a suitable platform. Then we walked for a few more hours in the morning before we found this famous pod. There, it hasn't been that easy.
First, we had to understand what they were saying. The further away from the New Lands, the more atrocious the accent. Toub, and we realized that it was mutual. That we had to speak slowly, with simple words, articulate. Not to speak fast and eat words as I had become accustomed to doing among the Trykers, by contagion.

So they descended the pod, and shouted things from above. By dint of shouting from each side without understanding each other, they finally put the pod back up with us in it. It was much wider than the one at the Halt, which allowed us to get into on with the two mektoubs. When we reached the top, we immediately felt that the homins in front of us had a different build than those of the Halt. The system of pulleys was however similar, so it should be believed that they were able to pull harder.

They looked at us with slightly startled eyes, probably because of our attire or what we'd yelled from downstairs, and then one said they didn't expect to see a convoy from the Halt for several weeks. I let Azazor do the talking, as agreed. We are not a convoy from the Halt, though coming from. We are Fyros scientists from the New Lands, heading for the Citadel. They were visibly confused, as expected. They asked if we had any goods, we vaguely explained what we were carrying, a mektoub loaded with bags of armadai meat. From behind them came a Matis with a somewhat hurried step and a stern look.

"This one I don't like," I whispered to Azazor. Two hours later, we were sure, I was completely right not to like him.

This one is Ostini. He's a sort of chief of guards, or rather he's one of the minions of the chief of the clan that owns the outpost, the Passers, as they call themselves. It's always like that with the homins. Give them a little power, and they'll work to devalue others to keep the little bit of privilege they have. In the end, Ostini asked the same questions as his homins, using a condescending and obsequious tone. A good Matis, the kind I had missed since we left. After a few minutes, we understood that he was only interested in the goods we were carrying, and understanding that we were not merchants, he then asked us to pay for our stay here. One bag of armadai meat per person per night. We gave him two bags of Titus' mektoub, without begrudging. This one will not come to claim them anymore, except in my nightmares. Ostini gave us a briefing on the rules of the Outpost. We will be allowed to keep our weapons, but must keep them stowed away when inside the compound, as well as a couple of relatively logical things, water is rationed and we will have to pay for it. We are free to use the dormitory, the tavern, and a partly open hall that serves as a place of exchange, as a market. He showed us the dormitory where we could stay, specifying again: as long as we have enough to pay.

So we were able to get to the center of the outpost. There are indeed six buildings, two of which are obviously reserved for the clan members, arranged in a circle inside the surrounding walls. A watchtower, the market, the inn, the dormitory. Nothing very pretty, like at the Halt. A rather functional style, whose some details vaguely resembling what the Marauders build in the New Lands.

"Two bags per night… we won't last long here," I whispered to Azazor.
At that moment my eyes fell on two strange figures passing further on, between two buildings. Two strangely familiar figures.
Disturbed, believing I was dreaming, I had a moment of inattention, and Azazor told me things I did not take in at the time. He repeated them to me afterwards: maybe we would spend more time here than planned. And that we should get hired as butchers or cooks at the tavern to pay for our stay, the time to organize and especially to recover our energy after several weeks in the Sea of Wood.

The figures, meanwhile, had disappeared. At the time, Azazor didn't believe me. "What? Fraiders? What the hell would they be doing here? Are you sure? What would they be doing in a Maraudeurs camp?"… We went into this dormitory. It's very basic, but it's still better than spending a night down there. I'm taking a moment of rest to write these lines, then we'll go to the tavern. I have a plan.

2620, summer of third AC

Here we are, we leave tomorrow. So much has happened here I forgot this journal.
To summarize very quickly... in case I'll lose my memory.
Arrived at the Outpost. They grabbed our meat, we crashed there for a few nights wondering what we could do, then we got hired at the inn as cooks. We started stashing meat to prepare for the rest of our journey. They noticed. Ostini, the chief of the guards, jumped on us. Azazor had the brilliant idea to tell him that we were trading the meat with the Akatorums for poison. Then I had to show my poison to that bastard Ostini,. A Matis. Of course, he immediately saw that this poison did not come from the Akatowhatevers... Then, the Trykeri we thought was merely the tavern keeper turned out to be the leader of the local clan. She made us spill the beans, but was relatively understanding. Which goes to show the Marauders here are not like the ones back home. Here, one can talk with them.

As a result, we agreed to make a delivery for her, as payment for our mistakes. Well, our actions, not our mistakes. They were kind enough not to throw us over the cliff, or anything else. At the time, the situation was pretty exciting, I didn't realize until later we were really gambling our lives.
The good thing is that O'Teelo is ready to provide us with equipment for this job. Marauder's armors, local. Just what we need to hope to get to the Citadel a little more unnoticed than with our naked Fyros dazed faces. She gave us a map, the way to follow seems simple, at first sight. First, go along the cliff to the south, to find the delivery point. Then, there, we are supposed to meet other Marauders. They will be able to tell us more about the dangers that await us if we decide to follow the big mountain range that leads to Sentinel. It's either that or turn around, find the Outpost and go back to the Rangers's path.
And this is the less good thing: whatever we choose, we will be compelled to make a detour of several weeks, maybe several months…

What we have to deliver? I've never seen anything like it. O'Teelo brought us a small box, and opened it in front of us. She knew our curiosity would have led us to open it anyway. She carefully took out three objects, with slightly greenish edges, decorated on one side with strange, shiny inscriptions. Lines, in all directions, dots. Up close, I noticed that they were engraved patterns, not merely drawn. The dots are tiny picots, inlaid. On the other side, how to describe… a multitude of ornaments, small objects, clumped together. Like pieces of jewels of different colors, connected by small shiny threads. Rectangles, circles. At first sight something chaotic, and yet revealing an incredible organization, each element seeming to find its place. As if it were a miniature city.

O'Teelo quickly wrapped them in fiber cloths, to wedge them into the box, recommending that we not open it. Not too often, anyway. She thinks the wind and sawdust of the desert might damage them. We promised to take care of them. I then asked: this is Karavan, isn't it?
The Trykeri then looked at me with a distressed look: "No, it has been laid by a lumper". Azazor didn't waste an opportunity to make fun of me, before taking the box and waving us to follow her to the stable. I would have liked to ask her a lot more questions, but my first one having been totally stupid, I didn't dare to add any more. Really, sometimes I'd better keep my mouth shut.

She took out armors for us. Color of desert sawdust, gleaming. One for Azazor, one for me. Already worn, obviously, but incredibly well made. We had negotiated those. Well… Azazor managed to negotiate. He bluffed me on that one. Oh yes, I forgot: before that, we had to go and get the famous meat stock. We felt like two idiots anyway, even if we were relieved of the outcome of all that. In the end, we even understood that they were going to miss us in kitchen.

I must write this, too: I have to admit that I was wrong. We were all wrong. The Marauders here have nothing to do with what we had expected. Akilia is only a clan leader among others, and all do not recognize her authority, nor her fight, nor her ideals. Far from it. The war she leads is not the war of the Marauders of the Old Lands.
Barmie knew that, no doubt. I can't remember if he told us, but we were probably too sure of ourselves, of our knowledge, we wouldn't have believed him anyway. What ? Marauders who don't pull out their sledgehammers to solve any problems, who know listening, and who are more concerned with containing the kitin threat than with the tomfooleries of our New Lands empires. Almost like Rangers, in fact. You'd think they'd be the same. We've only run into a few Rangers so far.

We go from surprise to surprise. Barmie had warned us about desert frahars. They are mostly Fraiders! I keep the axe that I hold from those of the New Lands on my belt, but unfortunately I did not have time to create a bond of trust with any of them. We'll probably run into more of them in the desert. I need to know more about them.

Oh, and Azazor decided to send all his notes to Pyr. I think that's silly, he's more likely to have them stolen or the carrier to be eaten by whatever bug is on the way. I told him to make a copy. No time for that, he says. Well, that reminds me, the letters I sent when we were in Fort Beacon may have arrived. I hope they are all well, over there.

To sum up… Actually, no, there's not much to sum up. We are just to get back on the road.
Yes, there is something. I must add… and confess: I would so much like to spend more time with the homins here, to discover their richness and knowledge, to understand them better. To come back one day to the New Lands with their message. But come on, this is not the time to stop, we are so close to our goal. A new desert awaits us.

Je me suis résolu à envoyer vers les nouvelles terres tous mes rapports depuis Fort-le-Phare jusqu’à notre départ de l’Avant-Poste Diplomatique. Sur les conseils d’O’Teelo, je les ai remis à un ranger de confiance qui devait aller à la Halte. Espérons que tout se passe bien. La route dans la Mer de Bois est bien plus risquée. Au pire tant pis si le paquet se perd. Toutes les informations qu’on a récupérées sont dans ma tête et je jure de revenir vivant pour les raconter un jour.

Bref, comme déjà expliqué dans mon précédent rapport, nous avons trois artefacts à livrer aux maraudeurs installés près de la Grande Flaque au sud. Ils sont censés servir à la construction d'un zinuaken dans la région. Les marauds sont en contrebas d'une falaise. Mais a priori, il n'y aura pas de monte charge ou d'escalier. Donc ce sera escalade, sueur et huile de coude. S'ils se sont installés en bas, sans moyen pratique pour descendre, ça ne veut dire qu'une chose: que la région est très dangereuse et que c'est pour eux un moyen de se défendre.

Je vais tenter de décrire au mieux ces artefacts qui me rendent vraiment mal à l’aise. Déjà, on voit tout de suite que ce ne sont pas des créations homins. On dirait des sortes d’écailles de dragon vertes et oranges, sur lesquelles sont peintes ou peut être gravées des lignes qui se croisent et s’entrecroisent. Incrustés sur les écailles il y a des trucs noirs carrés, ronds ou rectangulaires et des sorte de coulées brillantes, durs et froides qui les relient à l’écaille. Eeri parle de bijoux. Pour moi, on dirait des pustules noires d’une créature innommable suintant un liquide gris et brillant qui se serait solidifié. Il y a aussi quelques symboles dessus. Des lettres, des chiffres, mais sans aucun sens. Des symboles qui insufflent la vie comme pour les foreuses kamis ? Mais ça n’a rien de kami. Rien que de toucher ce machin ça me dégoûte. Au moins, je n’ai pas vu de traces de goo dessus. Je note tous les symboles sur une page à part et je tente un dessin du plus gros artefact, pour vous donner une idée. Mais vous savez mes talents pour le dessin…

Extrait du dessin d'un des artefacts.


On nous a pas dit le nom de ces trucs, O’Teelo se contentant d’appeler ça une babiole. En tout cas, c’est pour moi clairement karavan. Je ne vois pas les maraudeurs créer ce genre d’artefacts. Il va falloir que j’en sache plus sur le lien entre marauds et kara. Sur les NT, il y a parfois des alliances de circonstances pour les batailles d’Avant-Postes. On peut imaginer qu’ici ce soit là même chose. La karavan fournissant la technologie pour fabriquer les zinuaken en échange de ressources récoltées par les marauds. Une rumeur que j’avais entendue autrefois parlait de dissidents de la karavan. Eeri en sait peut-être plus sur le sujet. Bref, tout ça renforce l'hypothèse d'un fyrak mécanique de la karavan dont les écailles seraient ce genre d'artefact, même si ici il ne s'agit pas de dragon mais d'un zinuaken.


Pour changer de sujet, laissez-moi vous décrire brièvement le désert que nous parcourons. A première vue, il n’y a pas de différences avec le désert impérial. Même dunes, même sciures, même plantes, peut être un peu plus chaud. Des olash, des olansis, des savaniels, des botogas qui nous aident à ne pas trop puiser dans notre stock d'eau. On n'a pas encore vu de Bothaya. Je présume que la présence de la grande flaque pas trop loin permet une hydratation des sous-sols qui empêchent son apparition. Mais je sais plus, je dois confondre avec une autre plante. J'aurai dû mieux suivre les cours de botanique à l'Académie. Il n'y a pas de papalexi non plus sur la route pour l'instant. Et pas croisé de loojine également. Il parait qu'ils sont de la même famille. Ceci explique peut être cela... Concernant la faune, pour l'instant on a seulement croisé au loin des varinx. D'après les maraudeurs, nous ne devrions pas croiser de Fraiders, ne passant pas sur leur territoire. Cela semble déplaire à Eeri, mais qu'elle se rassure, ce sera pour le chemin du retour, dans quelques années.
Par ailleurs, j'ai stocké dans une bourse une petite partie de sciure pour analyse ultérieure, quand je rentrerai. Si le maitre xylologue Ulyton Meros accepte de se pencher dessus, on aura peut être une surprise.
Ah oui, un point intéressant à noter: l'astre du jour est bien plus haut que dans les Nouvelles Terres. C'est un fait. J'ai pu le mesurer avec le sextant. Je note toutes mes mesures sur une page à part. En estimant le nombre de kilomètres parcourus vers l'Est, je pense qu'on peut donner une estimation de la courbure d'Atys. Mais n'étant pas doué pour les calculs, je laisserai ça au soin des maitres de l'Académie à mon retour. Est-ce que le fait qu'il fasse un peu plus chaud viendrait de là, les rayons arrivant moins obliques que dans les Nouvelles Terres? Plus nous avonçons sur la route, plus je découvre de choses, mais plus je me pose de nouvelles questions. La quête de la Vérité est un chemin infini.

Nous devrions arriver au point de rencontre d'ici quelques jours. En espérant ne pas se faire bouffer par un varinx d'ici là...

Ce qui devait arriver arriva. Ce matin, nous avons croisé un groupe de quatre homins accompagnés d'un varinx. Ramèch! Un varinx de compagnie! Une bête magnifique, aussi haute qu'un homin. Un peu comme Aen chez nous. Sauf que ce n'était visiblement pas des maraudeurs. Ils ne se sont même pas présentés. Ce ne sont pas des Atakorum en tout cas, mais sûrement une énième tribus de nomades du désert. Ils ont exigé qu'on leur laisse tout notre bardage et le mektoub en échange de la vie sauve. On a essayé de négocier un peu de viande pour eux et leur varinx, mais rien à faire, c'était la totalité de nos affaires si on voulait pas, je cite: "finir dans le ventre de Razor". J'ai présumé que c'était le nom du varinx. Toujours est-il qu'on pouvait pas se permettre de leur filer l'objet de notre quête. Il y allait de notre honneur. Alors pour la première fois depuis notre départ de Silan, on a du se battre contre des homins pour sauver nos vies.
Résultat: on en a tué deux et le varinx, les deux autres se sont enfuis. Enfin... Eeri a tué le varinx, un homin et en a blessé un autre grièvement. Moi je me suis contenté de l'achever, récoltant au passage une belle entaille à la cuisse droite quand la pique d'un homin a réussi à perforer l'armure maraudeur au niveau d'une jointure. Sans Eeri, c'était mon thorax qu'il transperçait. C'est une vrai furie quand elle se bat celle-là. Je l'avais déjà vu faire dans les Nouvelles Terres. Mais jamais avec autant de rage et de détermination. On aurait dit une déesse de la guerre. Lopyrèch m'avait prévenu, cette homine est dangereuse. Heureusement que je suis son ami. Enfin, je crois.

Bref, aujourd'hui, j'ai tué un homin. Je veux dire, définitivement. Ce n'est pas du tout la même chose. Je ne l'avais pas encore remarqué jusque là, mais quand on tue quelqu'un d'habitude, on sait toujours au fond de nous que ce n'est pas, ou rarement, une véritable mise à mort. Là, quand j'ai planté ma hache dans le crâne de mon ennemi, j'ai su qu'il ne s'en relèverait pas. C'est comme si j'avais aspiré son âme. Je me suis senti sale. Cela m'a rappelé la mort d'une crise cardiaque du celiakos Lyan Cexius après qu'il se soit énervé contre moi. Sur le coup, j'ai ressenti une certaine culpabilité. Sauf que cette fois, je ne peux pas me rassurer en me disant que l'homin était très âgé et que son heure était venue. Je suis responsable du coup de hache qui l'a terrassé. J'ai pensé alors à nos ancêtres qui, au combat, devait vivre ça de nombreuses fois.

Tout s'embrouille dans ma tête, j'ai plein de pensées contradictoires. C'est vraiment un autre rapport à la vie.
Comme nous sommes devenus faibles à cause de la protection des puissances! Comme nous avons perdu tout cet aspect, je dirais, philosophique! Tous les guerriers, et moi le premier, nous nous trompons depuis le début. Tuer n'est pas une chose anodine. C'est un véritable pouvoir qui peut rendre fou. Celui-ci nous a été ôté par la résurrection des puissances. C'est désormais elles qui ont ce pouvoir. Et je ne suis pas sûr que ce soit forcément un bien.

Décidément, c'est la loi des séries. Aujourd'hui, alors qu'on avançait tranquillement vers le sud, je suis tombé dans une crevasse. Une belle chute d'une dizaine de mètres. C'était pourtant pas marqué qu'il y a des crevasses dans le coin. C'est censé être plus loin, vers l'est. Bref, on a bien passé une heure pour qu'Eeri parvienne à me remonter à l'aide d'une corde et du mektoub. Soit disant j'étais trop lourd. Ce doit être le sac, il est chargé de cuir de varinx, ça pèse son poids. On va devoir redoubler de prudence. Autant on a aucun mal à se soigner ici, contrairement à la Mer de Bois, mais on n'est pas immunisé à la blessure mortelle. S'il y a des crevasses de dix mètres de profondeurs, on peut imaginer qu'il y en a de bien plus profondes. J'ai beau être résistant, je ne suis pas incassable.