Hello, everyone,
Here is a copy-paste of a post on Khanat that would be too hard for me to rewrite in my condition, thank you for being indulgent for that, and typos.... (Original post: https://khaganat.net/forum/index.php/topic,572. msg1904. html#msg19 04)
I've been hesitating for a while to write somewhere about my situation, but I came across upon a movie that would perhaps help you to understand a little better what I myself cannot explain and to take me a little more seriously, since that does not come directly and only from me.
Even if my problem is not exactly the same, it's quite close to it; I even envy them on some points.
Anyway, it's not something joyful, but if you want to know why I do not come and why this year will probably be my last year on earth, I invite you to watch the movie "Unrest" (https://www.unrest.film/)
And imagine me with pockets of cooling gel around the head, a fan blowing non-stop to the max, water misters... To prevent my brain from
burn from the inside because of an excess of heat due to non-stop overactivity.
Sometimes I literally have a hot air stream coming out of my right ear, as if it were the exhaust pipe of an air conditioner, turning my pillow into a boiling one in just a few minutes.
Just writing a post like this burns my brain even though I take a super-controlled medication that helps calm my brain.
I finally managed to move the doctor's ass to get a neurologist's appointment, even if it takes months, but considering their incompetence and the little usefulness of their brains... you can't expect a miracle.
My situation is more and more critical and my brain is less and less functional, so for me the Khanat adventure is unfortunately over, because even if I manage in extremis to find something, I doubt that I will get out of it unharmed anyway.
It destroyed the first 32 years of my non-life by slowly and insidiously gnawing at me, forcing me to fight without knowing it, until it's too late, against my own brain.
And besides, my PC is out of order and I am no longer able to solve the problem.
I'm already having a hard time figuring out what I want to say, so I'll stop there.
Good luck and good dream to you all.
PS: And if you think you can't help me, nothing stops you from doing the research I can't do anymore. Or to find an altruistic doctor who is dedicated to saving lives by being willing to do more than apply a manual....
Gnmpf... Sorry, but the absurdity of the medical world pisses me off. ><
Bye
PPS: If some people have the courage and time to translate it or even rewrite it correctly, I thank them in advance, as for me I'm not really any more able of it.
Thank you.
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OSQUALLO
Here is a copy-paste of a post on Khanat that would be too hard for me to rewrite in my condition, thank you for being indulgent for that, and typos.... (Original post: https://khaganat.net/forum/index.php/topic,572. msg1904. html#msg19 04)
I've been hesitating for a while to write somewhere about my situation, but I came across upon a movie that would perhaps help you to understand a little better what I myself cannot explain and to take me a little more seriously, since that does not come directly and only from me.
Even if my problem is not exactly the same, it's quite close to it; I even envy them on some points.
Anyway, it's not something joyful, but if you want to know why I do not come and why this year will probably be my last year on earth, I invite you to watch the movie "Unrest" (https://www.unrest.film/)
And imagine me with pockets of cooling gel around the head, a fan blowing non-stop to the max, water misters... To prevent my brain from
burn from the inside because of an excess of heat due to non-stop overactivity.
Sometimes I literally have a hot air stream coming out of my right ear, as if it were the exhaust pipe of an air conditioner, turning my pillow into a boiling one in just a few minutes.
Just writing a post like this burns my brain even though I take a super-controlled medication that helps calm my brain.
I finally managed to move the doctor's ass to get a neurologist's appointment, even if it takes months, but considering their incompetence and the little usefulness of their brains... you can't expect a miracle.
My situation is more and more critical and my brain is less and less functional, so for me the Khanat adventure is unfortunately over, because even if I manage in extremis to find something, I doubt that I will get out of it unharmed anyway.
It destroyed the first 32 years of my non-life by slowly and insidiously gnawing at me, forcing me to fight without knowing it, until it's too late, against my own brain.
And besides, my PC is out of order and I am no longer able to solve the problem.
I'm already having a hard time figuring out what I want to say, so I'll stop there.
Good luck and good dream to you all.
PS: And if you think you can't help me, nothing stops you from doing the research I can't do anymore. Or to find an altruistic doctor who is dedicated to saving lives by being willing to do more than apply a manual....
Gnmpf... Sorry, but the absurdity of the medical world pisses me off. ><
Bye
PPS: If some people have the courage and time to translate it or even rewrite it correctly, I thank them in advance, as for me I'm not really any more able of it.
Thank you.
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OSQUALLO
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