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Hello, everyone,

Here is a copy-paste of a post on Khanat that would be too hard for me to rewrite in my condition, thank you for being indulgent for that, and typos.... (Original post: https://khaganat.net/forum/index.php/topic,572. msg1904. html#msg19 04)
I've been hesitating for a while to write somewhere about my situation, but I came across upon a movie that would perhaps help you to understand a little better what I myself cannot explain and to take me a little more seriously, since that does not come directly and only from me.
Even if my problem is not exactly the same, it's quite close to it; I even envy them on some points.
Anyway, it's not something joyful, but if you want to know why I do not come and why this year will probably be my last year on earth, I invite you to watch the movie "Unrest" (https://www.unrest.film/)
And imagine me with pockets of cooling gel around the head, a fan blowing non-stop to the max, water misters... To prevent my brain from
burn from the inside because of an excess of heat due to non-stop overactivity.
Sometimes I literally have a hot air stream coming out of my right ear, as if it were the exhaust pipe of an air conditioner, turning my pillow into a boiling one in just a few minutes.
Just writing a post like this burns my brain even though I take a super-controlled medication that helps calm my brain.
I finally managed to move the doctor's ass to get a neurologist's appointment, even if it takes months, but considering their incompetence and the little usefulness of their brains... you can't expect a miracle.
My situation is more and more critical and my brain is less and less functional, so for me the Khanat adventure is unfortunately over, because even if I manage in extremis to find something, I doubt that I will get out of it unharmed anyway.
It destroyed the first 32 years of my non-life by slowly and insidiously gnawing at me, forcing me to fight without knowing it, until it's too late, against my own brain.
And besides, my PC is out of order and I am no longer able to solve the problem.
I'm already having a hard time figuring out what I want to say, so I'll stop there.
Good luck and good dream to you all.

PS: And if you think you can't help me, nothing stops you from doing the research I can't do anymore. Or to find an altruistic doctor who is dedicated to saving lives by being willing to do more than apply a manual....
Gnmpf... Sorry, but the absurdity of the medical world pisses me off. ><

PPS: If some people have the courage and time to translate it or even rewrite it correctly, I thank them in advance, as for me I'm not really any more able of it.
Thank you.


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Thank you, Nistilar, for translating this unfortunate news.

Osquallo -- I am sorry to hear this. I hope that you can get medical help that is really help and allows you to continue normal life.


Remembering Tyneetryk
Phaedreas Tears - 15 years old and first(*) of true neutral guilds in Atys.
(*) This statement is contested, but we are certainly the longest lasting.
<clowns | me & you | jokers>

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Goodness! All the best to you, Osquallo - I hope you find the medical treatment neccessary to deal with yor SFC, and then recover soon. May Jena watch over you.


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Small quick visit through the phone to say that I am hospitalized for about three weeks (no wifi, therefore not too much access to the net) and something may finally have been found with finally efficient staff… Pfiou! Remains to test / dose / stabilize /… the treatment, but so far it seems promising!
Thanks again for the support and hope to see you soon :)


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Thats a good news :)

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Good news indeed, at least in that something is being tried. I hope that it works and you return in good health.


Remembering Tyneetryk
Phaedreas Tears - 15 years old and first(*) of true neutral guilds in Atys.
(*) This statement is contested, but we are certainly the longest lasting.
<clowns | me & you | jokers>

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Yay! Good luck!


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I hope your treatment is being effective and that you are at least feeling a bit better. I wish you all the best, Osquallo.

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How come I didn't know about that, I am so sorry and at same time happy that you're hospitalized. You're a great preson, looking forward seeing you running in Atys again! :)
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